Monday, July 7, 2008
Grandpa, I am so grateful that I was able to spend time with you until the end of your physical life. I believe your spirit lives on. You came to me in a dream the night you passed. I clearly heard your voice tell me to not worry because you were now a dolphin. I then saw a dolphin pleasantly leaping in and out of the water while swimming off into the distance. This dream was very unusual yet not such a surprise for you did love spending winters by the ocean. Growing up, there was always a part in my heart waiting for you. I don't hold this against you, for I know that you must have been hurting so much inside, and you just were not sure how to deal with it all. I cherish the calm moments exploring your home as a child. I cherish the one breakfast feast that you and Grandma made me. I cherish the time I sat with you, showing you and Nadine my photos from my trip to Europe. I cherish the day you learned that your granddaughter is a wonderful song writer. Playing you a song two years ago and seeing you smile, gave me a hint of warmth and an idea of what could have been. I made you proud that day. I cherish you squeezing my hand in response to my communication with you during your final hours. It must have been a whirlwind for you to listen to me sing and talk and pray for you aloud in the care facility. You awoke and you looked at me. You got my jokes because I saw an expression you fought to show me that I remember seeing when I cracked you up a few times in the past couple of years. These sort of memories I will hold onto. I pray now that you are in a place of peace. I hope you enjoyed the song I wrote and played for you at the service. I really thought you would live over 100! You always seemed so young and tough. You are living forever now, spiritually. You have been set free from any pain, anger and loneliness that you adopted in this world. You are filled with peace. You are loved. And I meant all I said to you during your final hours. May God bless and protect you.
